I started this vlog series as a practice in vulnerability. It’s time to put myself out there and at the same time offer a demonstration of what I do as an equanimity coach. I expected this process would take a week.
Sunday: Draw some cards and determine the poses that express those cards for me
Monday – Tuesday: practice for a couple of days,
Wednesday: video record my practice
Thursday: write my reflection
Friday: revise, edit, and polish
Saturday: post the blog and video.
And it will probably look like this for the next one in this series. However, there is always a learning curve on the first endeavor in any project.
The major thing I learned is that I don’t write the sequence, I allow it to pass through me. I had been afraid that I would try to avoid vulnerability if I wrote my own affirmations based on the cards. So, I recorded myself reading the cards as they were. In a way, I was letting the author of the cards coach me directly. However, the intention of the card is to connect with that part of us that needs the wisdom of the card and then take us through to the other side. In the pose, I only wanted to affirm the truth. The aspects of the card that were of doubt and suffering kept pulling me out of the meditation. So then I didn’t want to practice. I procrastinated and found reasons to drag Monday and Tuesday’s practice out for several days.
In the meantime, I coached my first non-classmate coaching session. I was nervous and had avoided this experience as well. There’s an excitement that could be anxiety around an intuitive coaching session, because there’s nothing to prepare for. I can’t write anything ahead of time because I don’t know what will happen. What if the client receives nothing of value from the session? That’s kind of scary. And in this session, I was reminded that I don’t need to prepare or pre-write anything because I’m not the one doing the work. It is happening through me.
And so I return to this self-coaching project, reminded that if I allow my ego-self to take a backseat, I can create some embodied affirmations for myself inspired by the cards, that will keep me in the yogic meditation during my practice.
I’m now four mornings into this practice and there is so much more to reflect on that I’ll end this blog with the affirmations and poses I chose for the practice.
ps. Most of these images are screenshots from the video. However, I have yet to capture the nadi shodhana practice at the end, so that one is a staged selfie.
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After burning out from a long career as a middle school/high school reading/math/science teacher, I returned to school to study massage, hypnotherapy, mindfulness, aromatherapy, and yoga.